Those that know me know what I used to be like – I always spoke my mind to a fault, was impatient with others to the point of rudeness, and had little to no tolerance with anyone performing under par with me – and let everyone within earshot know about it. I was always quick to call someone out, regardless of how it made me look in the long run.
I’ve changed because I had no choice.
I sat down with a professional and worked on my issues. I got a job in a corporate environment where none of the above is allowed – period. These things may sound like no big deal – but for someone like me…it’s like being in the military again–Being forced to curb my behavior because if I didn’t – I’d be fired or terminated; what I needed to do was realize that falling in line and treating others I didn’t like with respect, wasn’t something I had to do in order to remain in-place, it was something I needed to do in order to grow as a person.
Does taking criticism quietly from someone you have no respect for make you a better person? Well, it’s made me tolerant of even the smallest idiocies. Change in attitude doesn’t happen overnight or in a month. It’s been a long two years. In that time I:
- obtained a new perspective on myself
- managed to rid my self-publishing DBA of debt
- made new friends and kept them
- became closer to my family
- dealt with health issues without self-destructing
- faced publisher issues and backed off without apocalypse
- learn to forgive
- dealt with a stalker-mental person in the most dignified way I could on the internet
- become good at conforming for the greater good in lieu of cash [keeping my job!~]
For all my hard work, I paid myself back yesterday with… A NEW CAR!!!!!!!!!